came back to ofc today. wana take mc off again but din. mebbi in afternoon? tired though. and abit more packing to do at home. rush rush rush. and gona finish some private stuffs too. time is running out. needa finish some work in ofc before i go. thank god last few days the load is still fine. and gona celebrate meow's bd only when i come back though. sorry! headache coming again. better take some time to rest before departure tonite. *stretch stretch*

Finally i make it to the office today after two days of medical leave. hehe... been bz catching up with the rest of pple, and working on my overdue ITSRs. work wise today is still manageble. and gotta go shop for things for my trip. now time to go home again. yippeeee....

*cough cough* been coughing since last week and none of the medicine that i am taking is effective. i have lost my voice completely. last fri some of my colleagues were asking me why am i whispering? for goodness sakes! i din whisper at all! some even joked that i have a really sexy voice. arrghh... and it seems to be getting worse. i hv tried from the western medicine, to the chinese medicine and herbs, something that i will usually resist, but NONE of them worked!! *sob sob sob* trying all means and way to recover in time for my trip this fri. and to tell you the truth, chinese medicine sucks! the taste is awful. yucks. some of the prescriptions include black bees. yes... i din hv a typo error. it is REALLY black bees. my frenzs' mom made that for them and they did regain their voice back the next day, but not for me. anyway went down to the doc who has been seeing me since i was a baby, and he gave me an injection at the butts. ouch. got another mc for tomolo. feel so bad coz my colleague has been standing in for me during my absence. okiee. co sucks but this new colleague of mine is very responsible. *cough cough* we'll see which doc emerges as the winner then tomolo, the one who manages to cure me. *pat pat to myself*

the Pig is BACK! after going on leave for months, she is back today in the ofc. and you can tell from all the moans and groans in the ofc this morning. already some of the victims have been interrogated on their work during her absence. some sought refuge in the pantry. some are already planning leave. for the whole day i see this 24 hours camera shooting down on my ex team. for me? phew! i am no longer under her. i am really amazed at how a person can established such an unpleasant reputation for herself.

my throat hurts and the swell of my eyes juz subsided. went to see dr chan yesterday and for the THIRD time, he gave me the wrong medicine! told him many many times that i am allergic to nsaid and asprin. no no no. no nsaid. no asprin. no cefelaxin. no penicillin. once i touch those drugs, my eyes will swell up like balloons. when i was off work, that was when my eyes started to swell up, i ran all the way to the cab queue to flag a cab home. last nite was worse. not only eyes swell, my nose did too and have difficulties breathing. and when i went to the clinic, there has to be so many people seeing the doc that i was ten people behind queue. and each patient was in the room for ten mins. bless me. today staying home to rest. hope this ordeal will be over soon. *pat pat to myself*

yes! monday is over! yes! yes! yes! and if yours has juz started *dedicated to lin*, too bad =P i am going home soon. nininenebubu... hehe. going dinner with kitty. the rest seems bz. and needa look for a 1G memory card for my camera. i always miss the gd deals from the IT fairs. sigh. kath bought hers at 149 dollars for a 1G size. wow. gona go down sim lim to check then. so out of the place. lazy. gona prepare for my trip. sigh. too bad maeve have to forgo this time due to the accident. why does such unlucky thgs always have to happen to me. am always so unfortunate. will have to travel on my own again. nev mind. at least it's NOT china. *phew* met up with helen, my insurance agent. and realised she plays golf too! and she invited me to join her next time when she goes to the green. yes! one more frenz to play with me. hope she rem her promise. hehe. anyway even if she dun, am glad she made the offer. yr poor blogger's list of frenzs is getting shorter. all married and attached and gone. nev mind. if they give a damn about me and look for me, it's fate that we remain frenzs. else they are not worth it. and i went to search for jeans again. used to wear a 24 for levis. now err.. i hv upgrade to a size between 28 and 29!! anyway the sales gal asked me get 28 coz it fits better, except i hv one prob. i couldn't button =P thru'out the 1 hr in the changing room, i *huffed* i *puffed* i *oozed* i *squeezed* i *inhaled*, and only with the kind help from the lady then did i manage to squeeze into the jeans. time to reflect on my diet.

have i told you, have i really told you... that .. that after struggling for so long, fighting all the emotions inside me, thinking about, whether, whether i shd disclose to you... that for a long long time, thinking about if i shd, or really if i shd, that today...

i really have nothing to blog =P

my computer is so slow. finally my boss got the approval to buy a NEW computer for me! going to be flat panel! looking forward to tomolo coz meeting up ex-colleagues for high tea. it's a once in blue moon event. and my gang of SH wana go blading again this sun. me so tired and wana skip one sun to hibernate at home. roi kept bugging me to go and he's even using food to tempt me. arrgh... too bad no hunks else i'll fly to the park rite away. he shd try using hunks instead next time. hehe. orr... mebbi next time when i go blading i wear only bikinis? or half naked? me still in ofc waiting for mary they all to come. hungry. wait a min! i think i juz sniffed some food out there. slurp.

i am dog tired and freaking stress today. AGAIN i have another stupid quiz in ofc. can you believe it? i have my hands full of work, and still needa crack my freaking brains over something's not gona help and further add to my overwhelming stress in life. my new boss juz learnt a new spastic trick from my ex boss. a sms was triggered to my phone after nine to remind us that we are late! yes. i am late. so wat? din the people out there got promoted too? and next week onwards, a dollar will be donated to the piggy bank for late comers. great. no wonder they always said 'think out of the box'. i feel like asking some scums to get out of my life. they live only to contribute further to the biological wastes in the already polluted environment. bad day. really bad day. not good. thank god the frightening distanced weekend is crawling here soon. i am squeezed. i am frustered. *huff huff* and i have worked DAMN hard. why are there still no news? if there is really god in this world, can you punish me lesser? please?

yawn... i am sleepy but hair's not dry yet. meet up with chay ngee for dinner and went devil's bar with her and her ex-colleagues. been a great nite out, seeing my old old colleague from SH and get to know her ex-colleagues too. juz before slurping the last bit of my volka, i saw gavin shaking his butts in front of me on the platform. this guy is really happening. always partying his nite away. glad to run into him. been ages since we last meet up. thought he's still angry at me for not being able to turn up for his wedding. *phew*. din know i was that impt.

today's been another bz bz bz bz bzzzz day! got a bill run error. was freak out coz my workmate is on leave today, and my maharaja luvs luvs luvs to test me. he simply is infatuated in testing me. so every now and then i get little excitement like pop quizs, something i never have since cedar. exciting leh?

it's going three in the morning here soon. i'm tired. blown my hair's twice and still very wet now. jeezes... hmm... shd i try ironing it?

Tue is over! yes! as usual, need to prepare bill run for early morning at midnight. The thing being in IT line is that you have to, and muz be extremely careful dealing with dates and time. And sometimes you can get mixed up. And finally I have settled and found the font and size that I want! phew! After many trial and errors, I like this font and size the best!

Hmm I really like blogging. Can sprout nonsense, vent anger, design my own webpage and still get people to read it. not bad eh? Lin told me the color of my prev post is too light. Canot use orange. Really? but i like the color. coz it is bright and cheerful. think she will kill me using this light color again. need to go get my jeans later. been hunting for a dark dark dark blue colored jeans but till now I still din see the color or design i like. Penny told me levis may have the one with crystal studs that I saw a woman wearing the other time. Will go check out later (",)

You like this size?

Or this size?

Or this size?

din blog for 2 DAYS! really miss it coz i get the chance to sprout nonsense. wow... today is really cooling!! gota drag myself out of the bed. yawn... when will the day ends? many hours more to go and i canot wait to go home. last weekend been so busy. went facial and stuck there for whole day. yesterday went east coast blading with Penny they all. wow.. din blade for almost 2 years after the bad fall. was still very scare you know. anyway trying very hard to overcome that fear. and the paddings stinks! no choice coz i loan from the guy at the store. hmm.. still doing the new page for fordue. am stuck. gona review the layout again. it's suppose to be for miracle coz i was sick of the template. after i am done with fordue, will migrate the template over to miracle. but err... think the design is not very nice. hhmmm.. we'll see then. haha.. the guy sitting in the cubicle opp me is singing again. sometimes he hummed instead. been humming the whole morning. i think he joins the wrong industry. he shd be in the music industry instead =P

Hmm.. not good. Today is not good. Had a very bad nightmare again. dreamt that i got flushed down a deep, rapid river. my teachers (strange. how come i dreamed of them?) and maeve tried grabbing me but wasn't in time.

nahhh... dun like this feeling. woke up feeling very frightened. till now stil remember that fear that grips me. a feeling of dread and darkness. and trying to stay afloat in the bottomless, dark water, and yr frenz here aren't no swimmer.

muscles aching... ouch! can't even walk properly. need to massage it later.

Today is very relaxing for me. Been at home whole day. sleeping... eating... watching tv... talking to mom... reading magazines. yes! been very stress free and i enjoy idling. no one to bug me for work, no deadlines, no tedious codings, no interrogations. haha.. if only everyday i can enjoy this, or taking a short break from the hectic work life for awhile, juz to idle around enjoy, reflect about life. not bad eh?

Aunt annie came today for a visit. din see her for long time. am always happy to see her. mom din have any sisters. so aunt annie is like a younger sis to mom, and also like an biological aunt to me. =) she always like seeing me, and never fail to praise me every time she sees me. so she makes my day too.

Maeve called in the afternoon. in the end we went east coast for a walk and talk. Trying to get some fresh air for me after hibernating whole day in the house. hmm... this frenz dun usually date me out hor? anyway it's good that she is learning to enjoy life more, instead of working her ass off every day in the office. not good you know? and we gals have to take care of ourselves. age reflects more vividly on our faces than our male counterparts. we gals dun mind an older man, but man no matter what will go for prettier gals most of the time. this is what i have observed from the many guy frenzs around me.

Anyway, tomorrow's going back to work. arrghh... no choice. me no luck. not the type of women whereby men will dote on, or have a rich hubby to feed me so that i can idle everyday. haha. anyway it's good enuff for me. at least i can afford most things in life and today i can idle and take a break from work. not bad.

Need to go to bed soon. oops... forgotten to drink the milk i have bought today. and i have already brush my teeth. nev mind. there's still tomorrow.

good nite to myself. yawn....