sometimes i wonder... i really wonder... when will i ever stop luving food. at the rate i am savouring and enjoying them, i am GOING to be really FAT soon. have put on soooo much weight for last three years. but frenzs and family has been telling me they like my size now though. i was way too skinny in the past. but me aren't no wana be a fat woman. i wana to be FOREVER slim. next week, i shall do my part.

i shall jog!

i shall stop eating too much!

i shall cut all my late nite suppers!

i shall skip all deep fried!

i shall cut down on my desserts!

i shall! i shall! i shall!

*fingers crossing*

been trying to download the mahjong game. keep hitting broken links. hehe. juz broken wil's record on bejewel. am SOOOO proud!! have a very full dinner juz now. been eating the whole day. celebrated mel's hatchday this afternoon. the chocolate cake we bought for him is so RICH. still trying to digest it. yawn. sleepy again. mebbi i will go take a nap then wake up later to watch tv or play games again. since i have started hooking on bejewel again, i have not done anything constructive at home. arghh. juz tok to kitty. glad to know he is alive and kicking. miss him though. after he left the co, going to MISS him more. one person less to eat dinner with me. *SIGH*

OOPS! stomachache. muz be too much chilii i have taken for the chicken rice juz now. needa go poot poot again. ADIOS.

wow! time passed so quickly. may is coming to an end now. june is coming next week. and it's... it's mid year next week!! haha. already counting down to aws. Oops. and then again, i am still in SH. hmm. today some of the guys are going beach volleyball. thanx god i din join them. it's raining cats and dogs the whole day. been idling at home and sleeping my sunday away. so tired after all the late nites and from last week hangover.

went out with the gals last nite and have fun updating each others' lives. karen is preparing her aussie trip in june. so envious! lent her my winter coat and my heat packs. am so excited for her. two of us tok the whole nite on aust. it's not her first time to aust of course. and the rest of my jc gang wana go new zealand, self drive in dec, and they have already included me in the trip. they wana go to the LOTR sites. will i see my legolas? haha. err. we''ll see how then. karen and mua will be really broke after the aust trip. (",) with my jc gang, we are going to turn NZ upside down. jeezes.

and my strawberry sauce from aust!! it's good! it's delicious! it's fantastic! slurping on the whole tub of strawberries that nite coz i wana eat the sauce. going to eat some more later before i sleep. gosh. gona get fat again. arghh.

yes! yes! he sings! he sings! the guy opposite me is singing again! he shall be the next upcoming SH idol!! hehe. sorri. lunch overdosed. the gang wana go out again tonite. stupid mel suggested it but now he sabo me to do the job. *HUFF HUFF* he wans to sing or club. me still can't sing. not in mood for alcohol after last week's intoxication. we'll see if we can juz settle for movie and coffee later then. hehe.

Oops! juz rem that i still have not eaten the strawberries i bought two days again. wonder if it has turns mouldy. wana eat it with the chocolate sauce i bought in brisbane. i duno how to make the chocolate sauce for fordue. after several attempts, still not satisfied with the results. found the recipe from a magazine but have no time to try it out. duno where to get some of the ingredients like vanilla nut. huh? what's that? will try it out one day. i simply LUV fordue! hope the chocolate sauce i bought is good. from cadbury. wonder why local supermarkets dun bring in this. hungry again. sigh. why does this always happen to me? still trying to lose the weight i have gained from the late nite supper wil and i have been cooking when i was there. it's bad when you are a nite mouse. it's worse when you have another one eating with you at nite. hehe.

ADIOS. mua going to eat my SI-DOLL-BEAR-LEI now. slurps.

this morning i woke up very late. thanxs to a dream i was having till the very moment i woke up. duno why, still dreamt that i was holidaying. mebbi it's the hangover from my aussie trip. this time round i dreamt that i was somewhere in europe. was lost, together with the tour mates in the group. and we were searching for something or somebody but couldn't find. when i was saying goodbye to the rest as we go our separate ways, one of the guys was very helpful and was telling me the way to get around the town. hmm. watever. still very tired. gavin was in bad shape and gave me a ring to meet up last nite. told me he's filing for divorce. goodness. we spent the whole nite trying to encourage each other and ask each other to wake up. haha. fun toking to a close guy frenz sometimes. and we were telling each other how frenzs around us changes each day. by the end of it, that's not many sincere ones around, unless you can gave them material gains. and then came his colleagues later. that's when i have a free live performance. some idiotic guy in his office get himself into trouble with a gal romantically at work, and have to face the consequences. best thing is, when they were toking about it, the gal shown up with another galfrenz and that's when the show started. gavin and i were giggling thru'out the nite, and the poor guy was teased by another colleague the whole nite. haha. not a bad way to end my wed nite.

today... today... today.... i have nothing to blog.

hehe.

going home now. *muaks*

I LUV WHOEVER IS READING THIS NOW.

it's still holiday today!! no need to work!! wwweeeeeee.....!!!! came back from seanie's place today. tomolo will go back office to make the rest pay. we all got so high and i have a spliting headache last nite, and in the end mua have to stay at his place for a nite. and was bored later in the afternoon and bro actually brought me out for shopping today! hehe. not shopping, actually it is more of having to shop for ram to add more of it for my PC which is crawling so slow after i have loaded it with so many programs. and now i have a good 1G ram in my PC. hehe. envious? hmm.. abit sticky. gona bath again now. ADIOS.

juz woke up and was in the mood to make a meal today. went to the kitchen to check out if mom has any ingredients for me to whip up a lunch. been a long long time since i last cooked an elaborate meal other than the tuna spaghetti i did for maeve before i left for the airport for my aussie trip. after ransacking the fridge, i decided to cook some japanese curry, with the chicken meat freshly deboned from the thighs, added some prawns as well *YES! THERE ARE PRAWNS LEFT IN THE FRIDGE!*, miso soup and jap rice with some jap seasoning and seaweed piled on top. not bad for a quick lunch. and surprising i did it only in less than 45 mins! haha. but anyway the curry was easy to cook. even charles can do that. after that, still have some time to laze around before going to sean's house warming tonite. many people will be there. partly for his long awaited house warming, partly for kitty's farewell. but alas! kitty is sick and unable to go. am so disappointed. even sam and wenliang will be going tonite. think we are going to bring down his house tonite. with roi and sam around, plus all the alcohol those mad guys are bringing, tonite will be another crazy nite. hehe.

It's RAINING again!! it's sooo cooling to sleep in such a nice weather over here. thanx god it's not as humid as compared to the other years, and easier for me to adjust to esp after i have came back from down under. i LUV rainy days esp when i am at home. luv the dark skies and cool winds. luv the smell of the drizzle or storm before it comes. luv the smell of the dew on the grass and the rain after it has stopped. so fresh and fragrant! juz make yourself a nice cup of coffee, read a novel, turn on a jazz piece, and tuck into bed and there you go. (",)

Hiak! was reading thru my past blogs when i remember that blogspot still has NOT replied a mail i sent to them weeks back on some bugs i spot! now we know! they duno how to resolve the issues i raised! =P muahahahahaa.....!! juz have very full dinner. and finally my weekend is here. after the long wait. phew.

hehe... i simply simply CANOT resist blogging!! i am back again!!! juz tok to mom. we were discussing on how to enlarge our breasts and give it more aid during puberty. but err.. of course now it is too late for me. she was reprimanding me for wearing my bra so low instead of higher up coz it will prevent my bossoms from growing to its full potential. okie. too bad. my future hubby will have to live with that size then. else he can marry a cow. big breasts and have addition of fresh milk everyday. not bad eh? i am so envious. sorry. me sprouting nonsense again. too bored. mom and i went on about our breasts topic, and we were examining ours on the shape and size and... nev mind. now i know. Oops. *shaking head* and she gave me some sex education as well, that next time my breasts will be bigger when i have bf or hubby. wow! right from her mouth?? haha. tomolo i will go and buy toto. (",)

PC is dying again. explorer is hanging forever and ever and ever. darn PC! it simply loves DYING on me. when is the new one arriving? juz thought today i have some good news. terence is switching me to another two new scopes, and supposedly lighter as far as i can see. i was so thrilled!!! he wana me to try all the various modules in the team. and then came the earth shattering news. another babe from payment is transferring team. Oops! err... so is it good or bad news for me? coz there will be no one doing that module then except me. we'll see then. *fingers crossing*

slept whole day today. down with fever and cough. haha. juz dun seem to recover from sickness nowadays. wonder if anything more serious has happened. anyway have a good rest, esp after the oz trip and the late nites at the funeral. am still working hard at home though. yawn. gona take my med then. hungry again. come to think of it, there are so much more food to stock up anytime for late nite hungry mouse like me. in australia, all i can stock up are those from supermarket. boring after awhile. over here, you can have bread of any type, otah, ham, cheese and even pork floss. if it is not enuff, juz run down to the hawker and you can get mee siam, satay, chicken wings etc. too lazy? cook some instant noodles at home. you have a variety of korean, jap and local favours. sometimes i can even whip up a feast 2 AM at nite, cooking seafood broth, seafood salad, spaghetti or fries. envious? (",) some of my frenzs told me, if they stay with me, they are going to put on LOTS OF WEIGHT at the rate i am feeding them, and they luv my cooking. hmm... tonite think i'll juz settled on bread. too tired to cook.

guess wat? mua still awake! that's why i am BLOGGING!!!! hehe. cough too much. can't sleep. juz finished some work though. and it's 330am over here. yawn. three more days to go. sooo tired. am famished again. *cough cough*

oh no... oh no... juz when i thought i was recovering from the damn cough, today i am coughing badly again. i swore i have juz seen my lungs in front of my PC on the table juz now. i have to sweep it up and swallow it again before i can breath. muz be due to the funeral for the last few days and having not enuff rest, coz by the time i reached home, it was already very late. tonite is the last nite. *phew* anyway something great happened today. hehe. mebbi luck is shining on me soon? have a long talk with boss today. this new boss of mine sometimes is like a big bro to me. always sharing and giving advice. not bad (",) and kath is taking her test today!!! wonder how is the result. hmm.. sometimes i think the people working in this department should form a rock band for the idol competition. the guy opposite me is singing. again. the guy over at the other cubicle was whistling juz now. another one opposite me is humming. if all three of them do it together, they can form an orchestra. wow!

recently, i have finally finally made up my mind to take up a driving license. something that i have been postponing for a long long time. it was a BIG decision for me you know? firstly, been dragging for long time. secondly, my stupid bro has been bugging me. thirdly, after my aussie trip, i realised you have to know how to drive to get around in big country like oz. even wil was telling me that if i really wana work in oz, it is better to get a license. i know i know. but coz i din wana spend 2k for a piece of paper and have it lying around at home coz i dun think i can afford a car. and in the end that piece of paper most probably end up as a coaster for my parents to place their cups or fish bones. driving is a very adult thing to me you know? when i was a little girl, i used to sit in dad's car, singing at the back seat or falling asleep there. so to me, it is very dangerous driving a car, and only an adult can handle it! of course now i am all grown up, but some how that memory still lingers. after checking with kath on the details, i will go check out the registration then. kath is taking her test tomolo wow!! all the best to her! haha. we were talking about it and were telling each other how freak out she felt, and i would have felt if i am taking the test. in s'pore, to get a driving license will probably cost at least $1500. but if you learned from places like aust or US, it is cheaper. hmm.. if only... then i would have gotten mine long time ago. grrr... gona go to the funeral wake now. tonite my beloved aunties and uncles will be there. i will be probed on some personal questions again. great. grrr..

have my weekend full this week when sis smsed early in morning that her mom in law has passed away. there seems to be so many deaths recently. even dad's fish died that day =P mom expected me to go down immediately to help out and likewise for the next one week. opps. there goes my weekend. for the whole of saturday afternoon, i juz sat there staring into blank space and watching over the stuff for 4 hours. it was sooooo hot during this part of the year here. it's MADDNESS. and i am still reeling from the clubbing session on fri. some people were drunk, high as usual, and i have to watch over them. we have queued a good 2 hours juz to get into double o. goodness! by the time i turned in, it was already 5 am. anyway, later in the nite, sis and her maid were too frightened to go up to the house coz the mother has passed away at home. in the end, every time they wana take some things back to the house, i have to tagged along with them, and i saw the fear in their eyes. the maid was practically shivering. haha. was quite funny when i recalled this. sometimes i nearly luffed out but stifled a giggle instead =P well... duno why but i was darn brave. NOT frightened at all. hmm.

have a extremely unpleasant dream last nite. dreamt that i walked past a park, and saw him holding her hands, declaring his luv for her. she was shaking her head and when i called out to him, she ran off and he pretended nothing has happened. next thing i know is a monster chasing me around the place. and i mean monster. really a monster, those that we have seen in cartoons and movies. well, after all it is a dream rite? so we always dream about weird stuffs. ARRGHH. tonite kitty is organising a clubbing session. thanxs to our frenz from oz. a bikini cum drinking nite for the guys esp. even shan is joining us. it's going to be an eye candy nite. and... err hmm... of course is oso due to the fact that i am there at the club. hehe. this weekend is going to be a BUSY BUSY BUSY week for me. meeting with the gals from cedar and my Sat gang. and i STILL have not sent my pics for development yet. haha. wonder how cheryl will react when she sees vivian this Sun. hmm.. guess it wun be a surprise after all, coz the belly is showing. OOPS. something seems to be wrong with blog nowadays. the publishing status is showing processing forever.

it's FRIDAY tomolo!!! YIPPEEE!! YES!! YES!! YES!! someone juz told me that some busybody is trying to pry into his life today. scary. this afternoon, the pig is standing very near me and from my angle, her hair looks really fake. another colleague juz seconded that thought again. haha. and.. and.. and.. i juz realised that i have not edited and sent my aust pic for development yet. guess i have to show my babes the ones from the camera then. err... too lazy to do so. met vivian for dinner tonite. her belly is GROWING fast. it's BIG!! it's ROUND!! how awesome! and she's such a beautiful mom. i REALLY REALLY canot wait for the baby to be borned.

Hair. This topic was mentioned again for the hundredth time by my colleagues. The pig was back after a long long break, and they can't help but noticed her hair. it is neat. forever neat. in fact too neat to look natural. and on top of that, it is jet black. worse, after much scrutiny by the rest, it is still the same lenght after she has been back for more than a month. i am amazed at their analysis. even sandra was asking me the same qn this afternoon. haha. i din gave a damn to the pig. to me, the further i am from her, the better it is. was faxing some documents today when she stormed passed me. i looked up to see who it was and she gave me a glare, a face that's darker than mom's wok at home. *shivers* how much worse and nasty can a person get? fact is she is so unpopular that some people were kidding that mebbi she has some sickness that she has to wear a wig. me dun wana comment on that. but i will really be heartbroken if someone comments that about me, coz my personality will really sucks then. so rem. no matter how successful you are in the future, dun be too pushy or nasty. the last thing you want is to be drowning and the people around you are kicking you further into the water. wat goes around comes back to you one day. that's wat my mom told me. ADIOS.

hair's not dry yet. canot sleep. juz finished working. and tue is over!! yes! my user is sooo demanding. kick up big fuss over little things. again. hmm.. my room is abit messy. still trying to clear up my stuff from aust. hehe. muz find place to keep them. sis finally called me yesterday. but only to ask for direction to some places. not bad. at least she is taking initiative to call me. today after work, trying to load up my aussie pics onto the web and share it out with some frenzs, but my stupid pc died on me again. so astonished. after i get back from oz, i have found out few colleagues leaving me. happy for them but sad that we are not working together anymore. YAWN. PURRRR. needa blow my hair. NITE NITE. i will try not to drool (",)

today i am back in office. i have been MISSED by many after been away for two weeks. hehe. popular leh? =P during my trip, my Sat gang babes has smsed me few times that i have been missed. gavin has asked if i wana go clubbing with him. well, uncle, i am in aust. nick has checked on me a few times if i have recovered from my bad cough. this new frenz i have made is really nice. always very caring. maeve has contacted me few times too about my trip. and my bro and sis in law has oso checked on me that i am safe and sound. and a good frenz has called me yesterday to inform me that she and her bf has broken off on verge of marriage. she din wana me to know coz she din wan to spoil my holidays. felt so sorry for her. someone has messed up my desk while i am away. everything on the left went to the rite and vice verse. some things are toppled over on my PC. some are hanged upside down. hmm... i smelled a CAT. hello.. is it you? many people has asked me about my trip. even mommy debra dropped me an excited mail asking how is the trip. chatted with kath and frances about their boss i have met on the way to aust. haha. they were so excited and wanted to know who fetched her from the airport. so fun to have collegues like two of them. sometimes we juz joked about life and our miseries in work. easier to get thru the day after a good luff. and the rest of the gang i have been hanging out with has oso given me a good welcome back. met dr chan, another warm, sweet old lady. she thanked me for giving her the heat pad i have bought for her before i left for my aussie trip. went to see her on my cough before my trip and we happened to chat about aust. she din know there were heat pads to keep warm during winter and she was due to be back in melbourne in few months' time. when i was buying some for my trip, i have bought an extra one for her so that she will know what does a heat pad look like, and asked the receptionist to pass to her. haha.. not bad. you do feel happy helping others.

flew a long long way back from aust last nite after two weeks of fun and holidays. a good eight hours flight. was seated besides a very sweet, old aust lady who was on the way to Rome with her church mates. wow... so envious. my holiday was coming to an end. Hers has juz begun. She was so sweet that when i was first seated down besides her, she immediately greeted me with a very warm smile and asked how was my day. it was oso her first time on a flight. we went on to chat about aust and her trip. thoughout the flight, i taught her how to use the inflight facilities, the remote control, explaining to her the meal menus, helped her opening up some snacks that were sealed too tightly and so on, and she always replied with a 'thanxs sweetheart....' or 'darling' at the end of her sentences. she never failed to replied the same way to the stewardess as well. haha... who can reject helping such a dear old lady? at the end of the flight when we reached singapore, she thanked me profusely, and told me she was glad to have me seated besides her thru'out the journey. i went on my way home and wished her a smooth flight and a good holidays, and directed her and her frenzs to the cafes and shops in the airport during their transition break to rome. not bad to have such a good closing chapter to my holidays in oz this time. after talking to the old lady, i felt happy. lighted hearted. even generous. and can't help smiling to myself on the way home.

maeve has really driven to the airport to fetch me home. and the two of us struggled with the heavy luggages. at one point, we nearly toppled over the luggages coz my flat din have a lift on every floor. i have to summon allllllll my strenght to carry it down the long long flight of stairs. dad was out. too bad. so i was the only strong one left. but i did manage to carry it home then (",)

had a short chat with maeve. then with mom. sooo long din tok to them. maeve seems to be very stress. as her good frenz, i have tried to calm her and offer watever advice i can give. anyway i am back!! so i can be with her any time she needs me. hiak! aunt agony is here! =P let me deagonised your pain =P

today is wed! In juz 3 more days i will be going back home. sigh. wail. sob. anyway will make full use of my remaining days in oz. make lots of frenzs over here thru wil. they are very fun loving people! some of them even told me to meet up with them before i leave. so sad to leave them though. too bad i have no money to study mba here. else i can stay longer and even be their classmates. sis in law called me that day to check how is my trip. even the babes from my jc gang has sms me that i have been missed! hehe... not bad rite? maeve has oso told me that i muz go back, safe and sound, coz i was her only soul mate. hmmm... so far the only person who din called me is sis. still angry though. watever. tomolo i wonder where can i go. have problems getting from one place to another. and i have no idea how to get to goldcoast by bus from brisbane at all. damn. so many places i wana go in goldcoast but din know to travel there. today i am suppose to check with the visitor center, but the damn place closed so early. after poot poot in toilet, darkness has fallen and the whole brisbane comes to an end. argghh... that's one bad thing about aust. and my dear frenz is bz to bring me around. been nagging at me last few days for giving him troubles staying at his place. hehe. but he's been very good. for my stay here so far, he has been accompanying me most of the time. not bad. in sydney, no one knows if i am dead. jeezes...

heard someone's snoring now. oops.

Guess what? I am blogging all the way from brisbane! hehe. was in sydney last one week, but most of the time i am alone though. frenz was too bz with work. anyway sydney is a fabulous place no doubt. lots of shopping and good food. went blue mountains but great ocean road has more scenic views. and finally i have managed to meet up with joshua and his gf! miss him very much and they even brought me around the city in sydney. now i am in brisbane and bugging another frenz. hehe. he's been very nice, bringing me around the place, and we are going goldcoast again tomolo. but next few days he needs to start on his work so i will be on my own again. hmm... hv not really figure out how to get around the place though, coz so far in brisbane i have been driven around. very lucky gal for me! okie... till we blog then. wil is SCREAMING for his laptop now =P